I'm still here

Wow. I didn't realize it had been so long since I posted. I've been cameraless most of the summer, with brief moments of it working perfectly...



And then totally dead again. Being cameraless means that there aren't as many random quickie photos for me to blog about. I've also been severely slacking on my knitting. I haven't knit a stitch since Thursday and that was the first time I had touched it almost a week. I'm trying to finish a hooded scarf before the end of the month for a friend's mom. I really need to get on that one! It's been my traveling project, but car knitting hasn't been very appealing to me lately.

It's been a busy summer. Got a new job - for all of 3 weeks. Now I'm hunting again. We signed a lease on a new place on Friday. I'll be living in the next town over and leaving Boulder's odd little bubble for the first time in 4 years. Bug (and Vince) have moved to New York, so my wee doggie love is gone which was heartbreaking beyond belief. Luckily, at the new place, I can get a Shiba face and have fur everywhere again. I've been hiking a lot, which is wonderful. We did 2 hikes this week, one on Labor Day that was about 10-11 miles, and then one on Friday that was about 6-7. It's been great getting into RMNP so often. That $80-annual-any-National-park-pass has already paid for itself.

September is my 10-year knitting anniversary. Since I'm moving, I've had a lot of interaction with the stash, which is always interesting. There are things that I've found that I can instantly match up with the idea of what it was going to become and others just make me tilt my head like a confused puppy. Our new place isn't all that large, so I'm thinking I'm going to end up having to get a small storage unit somewhere. I don't want to live in a crowded apartment again after being in this tiny place for 2 years.

I'm off to pack more! Most of the stash is in the car right now and I need to drop it off at the storage place we have right now for the contents of my place. Sadly, move out/in dates didn't line up well, so I'll be living out of a suitcase at Blaine's until our place is ready.

On the hunt

I'm job searching again since I've decided to stay in Boulder until at least December. After that, it's all up in the air. I have no idea if I'll stay here, a lot of that will depend on what kind of job I can find. If I'm honest with myself, I made the decision to move back East under stressful circumstances. I was battling severe depression and social anxiety. I hadn't really left my apartment on a functional level in months. I wasn't seeing my friends. I wasn't even really knitting that much, at least, I didn't actually finishing much of anything.

It's a struggle even now to maintain a "normal" life and schedule. The last 2 weeks have been rough. I've been sociable. I've seen friends and done things, but my schoolwork has been slipping. I need to get this in check seeing as classes end this Friday and I need at least a C- in both of them. I don't know what's going on and why my brain isn't working correctly right now, I can't find a certain trigger that's making me struggle again. I'm just trying to get myself back in gear and gain some motivation back.

Making huge life decisions when I can't figure out what to eat for dinner most days isn't the wisest thing. I was trying to get out of Colorado so badly, I wasn't dealing with the fact that Colorado isn't really the issue. I am. So I am going to finish this part of my life. I'm going to stay, finish school, no matter how much I am struggling through it. I just want to be done with it, but I've lost all of momentum. I lost it when I started at CU. I try to get it back at the beginning of each semester, but soon enough, I lose it again. I don't know why. It's not boredom, I enjoy the classes I'm taking. I find the classes interesting, I just have issues.

So I'm applying for a lot of jobs in the hopes that I find something that will allow me to move into an apartment with an actual bedroom and perhaps allow me to have a dog. I don't want to live like a deranged college student anymore. I kind of miss being an adult.  I miss being able to call friends for an impromptu dinner or evening out. And being able buy yummy yarns. That whole being able to pay bills and maybe knock off a chunk of students loans would be nice too.

Here.

I'm finally in Boulder. It was a very hectic few weeks... I've gotten NO knitting done and it's making me insane.

On my trip out, I stopped in Indiana to stay with Oma & Opa.* She had a large bag of yarn waiting for me. :) She always has a mini-stash waiting for me.

I feel like I should mention how awesome a knitter and crocheter Oma is. She knits faster than anyone I've seen in my life. She knits hats for charity. Since she's started she has knit over 2,500 of them!!! It's crazy. She knits them all flat, sews them up and puts pompoms on them too!!!

Okay, back to work. I'm trying to look for a job, unload my car, unpack, and get my life into some sort of order! Wish me luck.

Oh, and I swear that my Hourglass will be done soon. I only have a few rows to knit and then the finishing to do. I promise I'm not just knitting that because I don't have anything else to knit right now. ;)

*Grandma & Grandpa in German, aka, my step-grandparents.