Tuesday, May 23, 2006

And one to grow on.

Everyday my sidebar seems to get longer and longer. I keep adding new blogs to my blogrole, new sites that catch my eye and so on. I like having it all listed right there for easy access while I'm at work, but I'm a little concerned that it's going to start looking like a jumbled mess. Or look like more of a jumbled mess.

I also would love to have a way to tag my entries, but I think Blogger hasn't really caught on to that newfangled idea. Maybe one day. I tag the hell out of everything I post on Flickr. It just makes everything so much easier in the long run. I tried using the "set" feature on Flickr and hated it. The only thing I still bother to add to sets are knitting photos... And that's only when I'm really bored and feel like wasting some time.

The past few weeks have been odd. Between starting a new job and only seeing D. once in about 5 weeks really has taken it's toll on me. I ended up going home several nights last week and just crying on my couch trying to figure out exactly WTF is going with my life. Work is going a little better (i.e., I've actually made some money the last two days. Whew!) but the love life has fallen into complete chaos. I have no idea what to do about it. I've been racking my brains for the last two weeks or so trying to get some ideas.

What do you do when you're crazy about someone but they live an hour and a half away? We're not a stage where I'm willing to/can move. And it has to be me who moves since he's in the military. But... And this is a huge but, he lives in one of the scariest cities on the planet. High crime rate, no jobs, lots of crime and drugs and murder and did I mention the crime rate? I don't feel safe driving through Fayetteville so there's no way in hell I'd move there. Also, eight months into a relationship is too soon to be changing zip codes. At least for me.

I'm not the leap of faith kind of girl. I think I took all of Aesop's Fables a little too seriously. I have to look before I leap. And measure and maybe ask a few people their opinions before I even take a step. I'm indecisive to a fault.

So for the time being D. and I are "broken up" but we're talking and trying to figure out what to do.

1 comment:

KathyMarie said...

I found my way here through the KR forums, and after reading this post I wanted to say that I've been there.

My situation was being 5 hours away at different colleges, and it did suck, and we did the seeing-each-other-once-every-5-weeks thing and it was hard. I did make the decision to transfer schools, but I didn't have the concerns about the new city that you do.

I wish you the best!